I am in Spring - Keeping Faith in Tough Times

I have been feeling a little down lately. Stressed out, overwhelmed, taking care of everyone but myself, over-extending myself. Moving, moving, moving, going, going, going. Head churning, Heart pounding pushing and pushing myself but getting nowhere. No forward movement. No abundant harvest. Wondering "When will my time come!" but knowing I need to do more things but differently, more effectively. Remembering that all movement is not forward motion. A lot of times we fool ourselves with busy work. So then I became frustrated with myself for not do
 ing enough, for not having the time or better yet making the time. So yesterday I went for a ride and sat by
 the water and tried to meditate and pray but my heart was still so heavy. So I walked to my car and before I drove off I sat there. And a peculiar looking tree caught my eye. It was shaped funny with a few little twists and turns, and I was sure that it was dead. At least it appeared that way at first. The bark looked like it was peeling in some areas and it had a very dark unattractive look. But as I sat longer and looked closer I could see that the tree was very much alive. It had survived through a harsh winter and now at the early beginnings of spring the akward little tree was budding with new life. Life that was in it all along even though it appeared to be dead.

I thought and I realized that I am that tree. Though I may seem stagnant or without any real visible results and things look a little bleak I can feel life bubbling inside of me. I have survived through my harsh winter and am starting to bud with new life. "I am in Spring!" As I continue through my seasonal changes of life I will be able to witness my buds fully grow and blossom and in time a harvest I will reap. We all go through different seasons in our lives. Never ignore the life that is bubbling within you feel its power and it's promise and relish in it. Know what season you are in and look forward to what is to follow. Never judge anyone else for what things may seem like on the outside. God gives us all life and Spirit within.