Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The I.N.G., Ode to a Long Distance Relationship (poem)


24 hours ago you were lay-ING
next to me
Three hours later you were driv-ING
back home
Then 16 hours later I was miss-ING
you

Now I'm cry-ING
But not because I miss you

I'm cry-ING
because of hope
I'm cry-ING
because of pain
I'm cry-ING
because of try-ING
Trying so hard for us

Life is a I.N.G.

So I sit and try meditat-ING
but my heart is rac-ING
and my mind won't sit still

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Because I am Enough

I sometimes have to remind myself that just me is enough
I don't need to be like, look like, sound like, dress like or talk like anyone else but me because I am enough
Sometimes I think to myself and wonder are my little thoughts and ideas really that profound? Can I really make a difference? Am I really that great?
Then I look around, or see the people on tv and can't help but compare myself.
How did they accomplish this or that?
What makes them more special than me or their ideas better?
But there is no comparison
I have learned that I am enough

Every thought and idea, I cherish as a profound gift from God
Every blemish on my face or body is exactly what makes me beautiful and connects me to you
Every weakness that I am molding into a strength
Every insecurity
Every tear
Every moment of confusion
All add to the beauty of God's creating me
Not only simply because they exist, but because of everything that I have within me to overcome them

Saturday, March 20, 2010

First Day of Spring - Living in the Fullness of each Day

Time moves
Everything changes
I am learning to embrace life and live freely in it
Sometimes I wish those closest to me could feel it as I feel it
Or see it as I
Life is beautiful each day
Every feeling or sensation
Every moment of sight
The awareness of how breathing feels
Or how precious our heart beat is
All makes life worth living

Friday, March 12, 2010

Love - Finding Love Within Yourself


written 2-9-10

I find that when I read back over a lot of my writing (I do a lot of writing & poetry), it is mostly about love and relationships. As much as I would like to say I write about more “profound” things, I write about him. Love is the center of life. It draws out your deepest emotions, heals deep hurts, overlooks faults and comes in many shapes and forms. Love is inspiring. It draws out your deepest emotions and your deepest self. It is the ultimate reflection of you. The people in your life and the people who you love, give you insight to yourself. They are reflections of you at any given moment in your life.

Love helps me to know myself and God. Love drives and directs everything that I do. Love is my source and my motivation to be better. My love of my family and friends, my love of myself, the love I already have for my future children, the love I am seeking from my future spouse. These things keep me afloat. I am love and so are you. The path to love (which I am reading, by Deepak Chopra), starts within you. It is not external.

Discovering Where Your Beauty Lies

Do you think you’re beautiful? Do you know you’re beautiful? Do you BELIEVE that you are beautiful?

I KNOW that you are!!

What does it mean to be beautiful? What is beauty? Where is it? Who is the person or people who dictate what beauty is? Do fashion models set the bar, famous actors or singers, fashion stylists, people on tv or in the magazines? Is it the guys you see at school, on the street, or at the club? Do these people set the bar for deciding or judging whether you are beautiful or not? Maybe it's what you see in the music videos? The half dresses girls that the rappers seem to love and the guys talk about at school or on the street. Do you compare yourselves to them

I Have My Own Path - My Path to Self

Burgeon in Light by Malcolm Farley
The young woman basks in the warmth of the light from within. Malcolm captures this moment of being extraordinary as the golden light overcomes her essence. No matter what seems to be the reality of the external life, she knows that the truth of the matter is she was born with magnificence. This amazing being has gone within, surrendered herself and turned to light of Spirit so that she may flourish.
Growth definitely requires pain. As one of my favorite singers Ledisi sings, “If I could, change my world it would be the same. There would still be love and pain. ‘Cus without it I would never change.” Change, or even better, transformation takes more than just reading some book, or listening to a speaker or preacher. True transformation occurs when you have developed and evolved into something different, something better. It’s not a thought or a notion, it is a state of being. Since we are all co-creators of our lives transformation has to begin with a decision and a deep dedication to being a better person.
We have to define for ourselves, what life is, and what about it is important to us. It takes having a lot of patience with ourselves as well as a mental/emotional cleansing.


I learned for myself that a lot of what I believed about life and the way to go about living it was basically what I was taught to think of it. Like all of us. But there came a point in my life where I began to hear a deeper voice, see a different side of life and recognize the vanity and selfishness comprised of mine.