I find that when I read back over a lot of my writing (I do a lot of writing & poetry), it is mostly about love and relationships. As much as I would like to say I write about more “profound” things, I write about him. Love is the center of life. It draws out your deepest emotions, heals deep hurts, overlooks faults and comes in many shapes and forms. Love is inspiring. It draws out your deepest emotions and your deepest self. It is the ultimate reflection of you. The people in your life and the people who you love, give you insight to yourself. They are reflections of you at any given moment in your life.
Love helps me to know myself and God. Love drives and directs everything that I do. Love is my source and my motivation to be better. My love of my family and friends, my love of myself, the love I already have for my future children, the love I am seeking from my future spouse. These things keep me afloat. I am love and so are you. The path to love (which I am reading, by Deepak Chopra), starts within you. It is not external.
When you have love within, you look at the world and everything you see is love, and beauty. When you lack self-love you see the opposite. The world seems doomed and dark. Your perception reflects those dark places deep within that are hidden even to yourself.
In order to even begin your journey on the path to love, you must open up those places and let light in so your perception of the world will be one that is even open to the possibility of recognizing love.
One thing that I have learned in my own experiences is that when you don’t fully loved and don’t accept yourself, you aren’t even receptive to love. Even if some is trying to love you with all of their heart, and give you the world you must first BELIEVE that you are lovable. Only then can you see, feel, give, and share love.
We all have some deep-rooted insecurity or flaw that we believe we must hide because it makes us this unlovable person. “No one will love me if they knew this or that about me.” This is not true! The best thing you can do for yourself is recognize areas in need of a little tweeking and make the necessary steps to change. You can be the person you see yourself being, because you actually already are, deep inside, at the core essence of your Being. Start opening the doors to those dark places. Write out your feelings about those things that you carry deep inside. These are heavy weights that hold you everyday. Release that weight. Free yourself and air out those arid places. Cry about it. Talk to someone. Seek professional help if necessary (It works ;), pull out the things that have been swept under the rug between you and your family. Do what it is necessary to obtain healing and peace because you truly deserve it! It will take time and it will be a roller-coaster ride of emotions but you will be able to feel that immense weight rise almost immediately from your shoulders. You will began to see that small little seed you planted begin to sprout in its process to blooming into a beautiful flower. Step out on faith and the strength that you know have within. See yourself as beautiful and lovable. It took me some time too. Sometimes I would just yell and recite the many attributes that make me wonderful while driving in my car on days that I just wanted to give up. I would say these things over and over until I believed them and could see that I truly were those things. Or I would look in the mirror and try to reverse the poor image I had of myself and see my physical blemishes and flaws as unique and my own common bond with simply being human.
As I get older I see love transform in front of me because I am transforming. I have learned to love from the spirit not just with emotion and infatuation or to fill a void I was lacking. I have learned to fill those voids with self-love so that I won’t feel that I just NEED to have this or that person in my life. I choose to want them because of the balance that they bring and the growth they inspire. I see them as a reflection of me. I love very deeply and believe that it will one day bring a true spiritual union into my life.
I read something very profound in Dr. Chopra’s book. Throughout our life, there is only one relationship. It is the relationship that we have with the very essence of ourselves, God and the Universe. As we grow, make decisions, and evolve through life, so does the universe around us. At any given moment we are receiving the best possible results. Everything happens for a reason. Also, if we look back at different stages of our lives, we have crossed paths with others and they truly did reflect who were at that moment of our lives. This tell us a lot about ourselves and where we were in our spiritual growth or if we were even trying to grow at all.
Find love first within yourself, then see love everywhere around you. Bring healing, peace, centeredness and awareness to your life. Take time to listen in silence to what God is revealing in your life. Listen to that inner voice and see if you are hurting or need repair. You will then be on your path to true love.
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