Ugggghhhhh!!!!
I keep finding myself at this same place. This never ending obstacle that I “thought” I so cleverly found a way to avoid. This tall stretch of brick, “20 ft. tall” wall. I often times envision my inner self as the almighty, powerful She-ra! But as the picture above shows, even She-ra found herself down sometimes… So, instead of using my mighty inner power, I use my mighty mind… or so I think. I come up with the clever idea to just re-route my path, OVER, OVER, OVER, and OVER again!! It seems like smooth sailing at first. I’m just traveling along, the sun is shining, I’m smiling, my red cape is blowing in the wind. I think to myself “Okay, I’m on my way this time, I can feel it. I really figured it out this time!” I feel like I’m on easy street. Soon enough, a dark shadow prevails and embarks on my path. I continue walking assuming that it’s just a passing cloud, later to discover that same giant road block. The same “20 ft. tall wall” shows up no matter how I try to mastermind my way around it!
I stop and sit on the road realizing that I really need to do something different here. “I’M TIRED OF MOVING AROUND, BUT NOT MOVING FORWARD!!!!” What is wrong with me! I throw a complete tantrum. I yell, I cry, I ask “Why, why, why?,” I punch, I kick, then I come to my senses and gather myself, grab hold of my mind, (which I had obvious lost for a moment) and decide to relax and meditate. Mediation helps to clear the mind and open the heart to receive the answers that we steadfastly pray for.
Here is what I found:
It is so easy to move freely and find little ways to smile with temporary contentment while in our COMFORT ZONE. But if you are really trying to move forward to new places and new heights, doesn’t that mean that you have to leave that little save haven? Everything that you already have is there, so if you want more, you have to go out there and get it! So, what’s keeping me here? Why is my inner She-ra sitting on the side of the road moping. What is this wall that is at every turn and angle?? F E A R My “20 ft. tall” wall is fear. Hmmm… Moving out of the comfort zone, means moving into DISCOMFORT which is really hard to do, but only when you think about it too much. In the words of Erykah Badu, “But if I get off my knees, I might recall, I’m 20 feet tall!” I mustn’t allow myself to cloud my mind with paralyzing, overwhelming thoughts of fear, rejection, failure, and defeat. I must stand tall, acknowledging that every moment in my life has lead to this moment, right here, right now. With each step I have grown, and once I stand to my full potential I discover that I am just as tall as that wall in front of me and have all that I need to get through it.
So I stand up, gather myself, brush the dust off my sexy costume, shake the wrinkles out of my cape, gather my sword, and re-validate my power. I raise my sword and in my super hero voice say, “I am She-ra, Princess of Power!” I strike the wall and take it down with one mighty blow!!! Well, not so much… In real life these things take time. It might take some chiseling, and there might even be many soft blows that will eventually lead up to those powerful ones. The point is knowing and acknowledging that you do, indeed, have the power inside and the wherewithal to face and tackle your fears. With diligence and practice your tasks of discomfort become second nature, so embrace them and keep growing. Keep rising higher. Keep moving forward. Every time you knock down that wall, you will find yourself in a glorious field of possibilities and potential.
“In every seed planted in the garden of potentiality,
is the promise of a forest.”
-Deepak Chopra
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